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I have a new Xanga.

Yes, again.

Click Here >>MyHeartsABattleField<<

See ya there.

(My Current post this there, so I'm not gonna bother with it here.)

<3333

-Carol~

[Mood: In Different]

[Currently Playing: Houki Boshi - Younha]

Um...

I kinda in alotta shit right now.

I was supposed to go to a dentist appointment, followed by my therapist appointment, but, stupidly, I forgot to refill my metro card, and now I'm stuck home. Just waiting for my mom to come back from her outing and yell at me ~.~ Oh Joy.

Besides that, today hasn't been any better.

It was a slow, uneventful day. Same old Same old.

Though, I did get to talk with Jessica and her posse before 3rd period, because I came in early(for no apprent reason too xD)

So we were talking about the usual; Jrock.

And then Hampton came by, Jessica started to talk with him, I joined the conversation, then it all ended with Hampton showing me his 145 pictures of Toshiya the bassist for Dir en Grey.

He practically loves all the bands I do xD

Its crazy.

We were asking eachother "You like Kagrra,?" then I would nod, I would ask him "You like MUCC" and he would nod as well... so it kinda went on like that.

Until the bell rung and he had to go.

Jessica's boyfriend, Jason, he's so weird, he listens to English music... bleh. xD

And he doesn't understand how Jessica, Hampton and I could listen to Japanese music all the time.

Jessica playfully hit him and said why couldn't he be more asian. As in listen to more asian music. xD

Then he pointed to me and said "But she's not asian!!"

And Jessica sighed like it was the easiest answer to the easiest problem "Well, duh Jason, she's inner asian" xDDD!

So now I'm Asian ...on the inside! xD Its great.

Anyways, other then that, todays' been really crappy. Though I did kinda, almost finished my watercolor painting for art today. All I need to color in is the inner flowers, then I'm done xD

I've been making more icons... o.-

Blame it on the boredom.

I'll post them later...

Mom's mad ><

g2g.

I'll edit it... xD

-Carol::~

YAY for 2006... ~Of New Years and New Relationships~

[Mood: Tired, but relaxed]

Um, well, today was quite eventful.

Usually, our New Years are always weird, filled with drinking, and loud music.

But thats only when we're with family. And this year, we weren't, so no loud music for us ;.;

Well, my sister got to the Bacardi, so I'm sure she stilll had fun.

Yesterday, though(stupidly I admit too), I didn't go to sleep, at all, not a wink.

So all day I was a walking zombie, 10 second delay and everything.

I hate not going to sleep, it's so annoying. Sometimes, you just wish your mind and body didn't need sleep in the first place.

Anyways, I managed to stay awhile 'til 6 in the evening then conked out.

I didn't wake up until my sister woke me up and told me Thiago was on the phone; he called me around 12:06 I think.

So yeah. I slept right into 2006! xD How stupid.

Anyways, I'm not really in a mood to write anything, but I feel as if I have too.

I'm still so tired ><

Anyways.

I've been listening to a shitload of music lately.

Courtesy of some websites I go to, to get torrents of albums and songs.

I'm listening to HIGH and MIGHTY Color.

They did 'Ichirin No Hana' the opening theme to the current season of Bleach.

I really like that song, so I downloaded it, and then noticed I could download their debut album; Goover.

So I did... one of the best fucking things I ever heard.

Their sound's so great, it's an awesome blend of industrial(fyi- it's electronica mixed with rock) with metal-ish rock, and pretty female vocals.

They're just... overthetop.

I downloaded the Discography for Schwarz Stein, it's not much, only two ablums and fou singles.

They brokeup after that.

Which is a shame, I loved their music.

I have the Discog. of L'arc~en~Ciel, Ayumi Hamasaki, MUCC, Merry, Kagerou, Inugami Circus-dan, Janne Da Arc, and Asian Kung-Fu Generation.

That, plus alot of albums I got from Kagrra,, Shiina Ringo, Do As Infinity, and Younha... and a shitload of other people. Brings my music count to 1,349, 7.14 GB, 4 and a Half Days of music straight.

xD I'm proud of my collection, as you could probably already see.

I'm currenting downloading the Discog. for XJapan, their fucking awesome, anyone who hasn't heard them, can't possbile call themsleves Jrock fans... I'm kidding, but not about the awesome part xD

Anyways, when I was talking with Thiago not to long ago, I was making FAKE?(as in the Jrock band) lyrical icons.

You can take them if you want, you can credit, but I'm not gonna chase 'ya down if you dont. xD

50x50 icons(use 'em for AIM or DeviantArt)

(from Candy)

(from Alkaline)

 (from Someday)

(from Alkaline)

(from Alkaline)

(from Static)

100x100 icons(basically they're "Avatars" used mostly in forums and such)

(this's my favorite one ^^, it's from Something About You)

 (From Escape From Audio Mess)

 (from Praise)

(from Static)

..

So yeah xD.

I was bored as hell, with my Adobe Photoshop open... strange things start to happen xD

You guys like? If I get enough praise for 'em, I'll continue to make more but with different lyrics from differen't bands... I've been having my eye on Laruku's lyrics for a while xD

~

Um... so yeah, pretty weird things happened to me today.

Its wasn't like it was a surprise, cause I have inside sources, so I had time to think about my answer.

I was really unsure as to what to say. At first I wanted to turn him down, just say I'm not ready, he would've understood.

But after reading a certain email he sent me... my heart did a complete U-turn. xD

Um, so yeah.

Heh, how odd.

I never really saw myself as the "relationship" type at all.

Aw well. xD

Anyways.

Take Care Everyone, Hope Your New Years Was FunFilled And Your New Year Filled With New Things xD(be them happy or sad, little piece of advice, just take them in stride)

~::My New Years Resolution is for me to push myself and to pass this school year with at least a 80 average. ... I know I can do it if I tried hard enough xD.

-Carol::~ 

Snipets of a funny conversation.
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I'm IIHeavensDriveII, Thiago's NihiIishtic Art.
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NihiIistic Art (1:49:36 AM): -Prods.- Are you not-living? o.O
IIHeavensDriveII (1:50:12 AM): lol Sorry, I was kinda loading the buddy list from Vote4
IIHeavensDriveII (1:50:20 AM): and I'm looking for a new icon
NihiIistic Art (1:50:29 AM): Ah.
NihiIistic Art (1:50:37 AM): I'd get one to match your SN ..
NihiIistic Art (1:50:40 AM): Like .. The King.
NihiIistic Art (1:50:48 AM): And it goes "God hates Sakura-fans"
NihiIistic Art (1:50:51 AM): >x[
IIHeavensDriveII (1:51:03 AM): xDD
NihiIistic Art (1:54:24 AM): Ah ... I hope 2006 turns out well. ^^
IIHeavensDriveII (1:55:38 AM): Yeah, me too... and hopefully it does. Though, I mean, come on, it'lll be pretty hard to mess up an entire year xD
NihiIistic Art (1:55:50 AM): Yeah. xD
NihiIistic Art (1:56:00 AM): Unless Bush isn
NihiIistic Art (1:56:04 AM): isn't assassinated.
IIHeavensDriveII (1:56:29 AM): Ah, yeah, that might pose to be troublesome ~.~
NihiIistic Art (1:58:39 AM): Bush reminds us that even a total failure can be President.
NihiIistic Art (1:58:44 AM): That's why my chances of running the country have rose from 10% --> 99.999%
NihiIistic Art (1:58:45 AM):  
IIHeavensDriveII (1:59:00 AM): xDD!
IIHeavensDriveII (1:59:30 AM): Even the homeless have hope, that they too, could be president one day.
NihiIistic Art (1:59:39 AM): xDDD
NihiIistic Art (1:59:47 AM): At least they can pronounce "nuclear."
NihiIistic Art (2:00:18 AM): Omfg. Those hobo's who go around preaching the Apocalypse make more sense than Bush.
NihiIistic Art (2:00:43 AM): He once said "I believe that fish and humans can coexist peacefully in perfect harmony."
IIHeavensDriveII (2:01:22 AM): xD I know, what a retard
NihiIistic Art (2:01:40 AM): Is it possible that Bush > Black stalker dude?
IIHeavensDriveII (2:02:27 AM): hm... I'd have to say so ><
NihiIistic Art (2:02:43 AM): xD
NihiIistic Art (2:03:23 AM): I'll come to 'dozo on Wednesday or something, alright?
IIHeavensDriveII (2:03:36 AM): Um, okay, sure.
IIHeavensDriveII (2:03:51 AM): Just remember to remind me the day before, so I won't forget xD
NihiIistic Art (2:03:59 AM): Alright. xD
NihiIistic Art (2:04:15 AM): You know, your way of accepting things is ... odd.
NihiIistic Art (2:04:35 AM): "Um uh .. okay .. sure." -Narrows eyes.-
IIHeavensDriveII (2:05:21 AM): o.- okay then, Mr.Paranoid.
IIHeavensDriveII (2:06:17 AM): how'd you expect me to accept it? "OMFGAJKHSFAJAYAYBBQ"? o.-;...
IIHeavensDriveII (2:06:23 AM): You're an idiot.
NihiIistic Art (2:06:53 AM): XD
NihiIistic Art (2:07:05 AM): That's something I expect from Shawa.
IIHeavensDriveII (2:07:41 AM): yeah, I've been hangin' around her too much it seems.
NihiIistic Art (2:08:04 AM): I'm too scared to even try it. o.o
IIHeavensDriveII (2:09:33 AM): try what?
NihiIistic Art (2:09:46 AM): Hanging around her for extended periods of time.
IIHeavensDriveII (2:10:34 AM): xD She's turn you gayer then I could ever hope.
NihiIistic Art (2:10:44 AM): .... e_______e
NihiIistic Art (2:10:58 AM): Y'know what?
NihiIistic Art (2:11:34 AM): -Goes off and turns Daniel straight, makes Gen homophobic again, and transforms Shawa into an ordinary not-so-obsessed-over-queer-things type of gal.-
NihiIistic Art (2:11:35 AM): e.e
IIHeavensDriveII (2:11:58 AM): I'd like to see you try all that.
NihiIistic Art (2:12:12 AM): Is that a challenge?
NihiIistic Art (2:12:14 AM): .. Foo'?
NihiIistic Art (2:13:29 AM): If I had enough manpower, resources, motivation, and a deadline of 10 years, I could probably accomplish all that .. u.u
IIHeavensDriveII (2:14:11 AM): Sure, If you want to lie to yourself like that...
NihiIistic Art (2:14:21 AM): You shush. ><
NihiIistic Art (2:15:25 AM): You = Mean to me. ;.;
NihiIistic Art (2:15:48 AM): -Turns more em0 than you + Anthony combined.-  
NihiIistic Art (2:16:28 AM): ///_;
IIHeavensDriveII (2:17:28 AM): xDDD!
NihiIistic Art (2:20:16 AM): OHHH.
NihiIistic Art (2:20:32 AM): I should ask Dave-O if he wants to partake in Catherine's weird ..
NihiIistic Art (2:20:39 AM): Menage e trois .. thing.
NihiIistic Art (2:20:40 AM): o.o
IIHeavensDriveII (2:20:44 AM): xDD
IIHeavensDriveII (2:20:49 AM): Yeah.
NihiIistic Art (2:21:29 AM): Ohhh, me and Karn might start this Hindu Prostitutione Service.
NihiIistic Art (2:21:38 AM): "Allah for a Dollah". ;3
IIHeavensDriveII (2:21:47 AM): omfg.
IIHeavensDriveII (2:21:54 AM): You two ARE PATHETIC!
NihiIistic Art (2:21:59 AM): xDD!
NihiIistic Art (2:22:39 AM): C'mon! Wouuldn't it make you feel all warm and squishee inside if you Hollah'd .. for Allah? :D
IIHeavensDriveII (2:23:31 AM): No. No, it won't.
NihiIistic Art (2:23:46 AM): ... Can it make me feel warm and squishee instead?  
NihiIistic Art (2:25:05 AM): Hold on, off to prostit- I mean, comment peoples' Xanga's.
IIHeavensDriveII (2:25:24 AM): xD
NihiIistic Art (2:26:27 AM): Damn, you haven't updated since the 25th.
NihiIistic Art (2:26:31 AM): SHAME! >(
IIHeavensDriveII (2:27:21 AM): o.- I know, I just never feel like posting, and when I do, I'm too tired to type
NihiIistic Art (2:30:26 AM): Ah. Laziness conquers all, once again.
IIHeavensDriveII (2:32:44 AM): How true.
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IIHeavensDriveII (3:21:49 AM): But I'm sure I can kick her off my bed eventually
NihiIistic Art (3:22:02 AM): xDDD
NihiIistic Art (3:22:25 AM): Or you can just cover her with a blanket, and fall asleep on her.
NihiIistic Art (3:22:37 AM): Shhhh .. Just pretend she is one with the mattress ...
IIHeavensDriveII (3:22:42 AM): xDDDD
IIHeavensDriveII (3:23:03 AM): I could probably do that too, but then again, she moves around too much for a matteress x.o
NihiIistic Art (3:23:15 AM): She can be a water bed?
IIHeavensDriveII (3:23:27 AM): xDDD
NihiIistic Art (3:24:49 AM): Just prod her with a sharp object, and hopefully she deflates.
NihiIistic Art (3:25:20 AM): And y'know .. Kind of eliminates the problem of having something coming in between you and your bed.
IIHeavensDriveII (3:26:43 AM): xD!
IIHeavensDriveII (3:27:13 AM): If only the same could be done with her overgrown ego.
NihiIistic Art (3:27:37 AM): Haha, yeah. xD
NihiIistic Art (3:27:53 AM): A few harsh/truthful words may knock some sense into her.
NihiIistic Art (3:28:11 AM): And if that doesn't work, a sledgehammer oughta do the trick.
NihiIistic Art (3:28:17 AM): Just an innocent suggestion, of course ... >.>

Of Transit Strikes and Mentrusal Pains(MERRY CHRISTMAKWAZAHANAKKAH <3)

[Mood: In Pain x.x;]

Ugh...

Man.

The past week hasn't been my best, but I lived, which is more important then anything xD

I'm currently listening to Ragnarok BGM.

Its so great :3

Anyways.

On Thursday, I was like Santa Claus, I had  four or five bags  of presents to give out ^^

Ah man, it was great.

I got great gifts in exchange too.

My friend Stephanie(aka fellow SasuNaru Supporter xD) gave me Itachi-colored nail polish. I'm not kidding, it looks exactly like the color he wears in the anime, that burgundy/purple.

Which'll go perfect with my Itachi coat ^^

And she gave me the Yu Yu Hakusho movie; The Poltergeist Report.

Since I've never seen it xD

And she's a huge fan of it.

I got bunch of cards, and promises  of presents once the vacation was over.

The whole strike thing really messed up everyone in NYC's schedule.

In 'Dozo there was a delayed schedule, which I was glad to have, which meant I started at 10:10 rather then 9:10 and I got out at 2:40 rather then at 3:40.

And the periods were only 22 minutes long, minusing the bell time and everything.

The only thing that sucked the most was the fact that a)I totally depended on the Metro to get everywhere, so no buy all the presents I wanted to buy in Mahatten & b)There was no afterschool programs whatsoever, so no clubs, no nothing ~.~

Ah it sucked.

My mother hoped all those striking transit works would get fired. xD

But I understand where they're coming from, but theres no need to make the city suffer.

I mean, how are we gonna get them a raise?!

Making us suffer didn't really do much for them in the end.

But ah well.

Today was so OMFG awesome I saw BrokeBack Mountain with my mom and Thiago.

It was so frikking GOOD!

I loved it ^^

Execpt the ending... but I'm not gonna say anything for the fear of spoiling it for some people xD;

I wanted to see my Therapist, but due to the srtike I couldn't, stupid fuckers.

><

Its weird... I can feel something one day and totally not feel it another.

Its weird.

Anyways, I'm dealing through some bad family problems right not, more or less due to my sister mostly.

But, I'll live, hopefully xD

Thiago's really helping me get through a whole lot of shit thats happening to me.

::sigh::...

Ah well.

Omfg, My friend Romy gave me this black t-shirt that reads;'Satan's School For Girl' with little horned and tailed cheerleaders on it to boot xDD

And plus now I'm wearing my upside down cross from the anime DeathNote,Thiago called me a girly Satanist xD

How weird.

Anyways, did I mention how cool RAG BGM was? Its all techno-y.

^^

Thiago helped me a my mother put up christmas decorations, so my place looks all spiffy now :3

Its great.

...

Anyways, I'm noticing, it's hard to control my em0-ness these days.

Those if I do it every once in a while, it's more controlled then when I stop for a long period of time and start again.

Thats pretty much all I'm got on my little em0 situation xD

I'm soooooo tired right now.

I think I'll hit the hay.

Merry Christmas(kwanza/hanakkah whatever you celebrate ^^) To All

Love,
          Carol <3

~~Pics~~

xDDD

The hawtness that is Gackt-sama xDD(BBM with Gackt&Hyde... Mmm, Yaoi ;3)

LMAO

Currently Listening 666 By Hyde Masquerade see related

[Mood: Tired-ish]

I pimped out my xanga... again xD

And I added a shitload of music to my music player.

I'm tesing in the music now.

Currently it's on 'Beast of Blood' by Malicer Mizer.

Oh Oh!

I was talking some questioniares on this anxiety wesbite.

And I found out, that  was, in fact, and honest-to-god anxiety attack.

And that I might have a GAD; Generalized Anxiety Disorder.

o.0

xD

You take it, and lets see it you have it too :D

GAD Questioniare.

Anyways...

I'm not really in the mood to write, I gotta get up early so I can go to Mahatten with Thiago.

Holiday Shopping ~~;

Here's something pretty funny Thiago found on a tshirt.

Don't you wish your tshirt was as cool as this?

• Taoism: Shit happens.
• Confucianism: Confucius say, "Shit happens."
• Buddhism: If shit happens, it isn't really shit.
• Zen Buddhism: Shit is, and is not.
• Zen Buddhism #2: What is the sound of shit happening?
• Hinduism: This shit has happened before.
• Islam: If shit happens, it is the will of Allah.
• Islam #2: If shit happens, kill the person responsible.
• Islam #3: If shit happens, blame Israel.
• Catholicism: If shit happens, you deserve it.
• Protestantism: Let shit happen to someone else.
• Presbyterian: This shit was bound to happen.
• Episcopalian: It's not so bad if shit happens, as long as you serve the right wine with it.
• Methodist: It's not so bad if shit happens, as long as you serve grape juice with it.
• Congregationalist: Shit that happens to one person is just as good as shit that happens to another.
• Unitarian: Shit that happens to one person is just as bad as shit that happens to another.
• Lutheran: If shit happens, don't talk about it.
• Fundamentalism: If shit happens, you will go to hell, unless you are born again. (Amen!)
• Fundamentalism #2: If shit happens to a televangelist, it's okay.
• Fundamentalism #3: Shit must be born again.
• Judaism: Why does this shit always happen to us?
• Calvinism: Shit happens because you don't work.
• Seventh Day Adventism: No shit shall happen on Saturday.
• Creationism: God made all shit.
• Secular Humanism: Shit evolves.
• Christian Science: When shit happens, don't call a doctor - pray!
• Christian Science #2: Shit happening is all in your mind.
• Unitarianism: Come let us reason together about this shit.
• Quakers: Let us not fight over this shit.
• Utopianism: This shit does not stink.
• Darwinism: This shit was once food.
• Capitalism: That's MY shit.
• Communism: It's everybody's shit.
• Feminism: Men are shit.
• Chauvinism: We may be shit, but you can't live without us...
• Commercialism: Let's package this shit.
• Impressionism: From a distance, shit looks like a garden.
• Idolism: Let's bronze this shit.
• Existentialism: Shit doesn't happen; shit IS.
• Existentialism #2: What is shit, anyway?
• Stoicism: This shit is good for me.
• Hedonism: There is nothing like a good shit happening!
• Mormonism: God sent us this shit.
• Mormonism #2: This shit is going to happen again.
• Wiccan: An it harm none, let shit happen.
• Scientology: If shit happens, see "Dianetics", p.157.
• Jehovah's Witnesses: >Knock< >Knock< Shit happens.
• Jehovah's Witnesses #2: May we have a moment of your time to show you some of our shit?
• Jehovah's Witnesses #3: Shit has been prophesied and is imminent; only the righteous shall survive its happening.
• Moonies: Only really happy shit happens.
• Hare Krishna: Shit happens, rama rama.
• Rastafarianism: Let's smoke this shit!
• Zoroastrianism: Shit happens half on the time.
• Church of SubGenius: BoB shits.
• Practical: Deal with shit one day at a time.
• Agnostic: Shit might have happened; then again, maybe not.
• Agnostic #2: Did someone shit?
• Agnostic #3: What is this shit?
• Satanism: SNEPPAH TIHS.
• Atheism: What shit?
• Atheism #2: I can't believe this shit!
• Nihilism: No shit.
  

xD

I was laughing my ass off too.

Anyways, just updating for the sake and hell of it ^^

Take Care Ppl

~
Why do we have a 'word of truth'
When the world was all an april fool's?
How come we have an antidote
When germs grow fast and break the rules?
Why did I sell my soul
When it won't be long before it's worn and torn?
Are you sad or are you happy?
All this pretension makes me yearn
-- 'Masquerade' × Hyde
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-Carol::~